Dhua hi dhua

Pyaar ke intezaar mein, takleef tho hai magar
Unki aarzoo mein phir bhi, thakti hi nahin pyaasi nazar

Pyaar ka jaadoo hai yeh, shaayad  rukta hi nahin
Khushi mile ya gham, zaalim yeh to maanta hi nahin

Dil jalta hai yaad mein
Raath katthi nahin

Yoon thadap thadap ke hum  khud jalgaye
Unki dil tak yeh dhua, pahunchta kyoon nahin...

Rooh jo dhoonde unhe, ey khuda, thu hi batha
Dil bas yahi savaal dohraa rahi

kya woh ab kabhi mudke
humse milne aayenge hi nahin?

Hum hain ya nahin?

Yaad kyaa karna, jinhe bhoole hi nahin
Pal pal saason ke saath rehte hain woh
Sirf wohi hain, hum to jaise hain hi nahin!

Unse mile na mile, aakhen poochti nahin
Jaan se jude hain woh,
to kya hua woh, jo saamne aate nahin.

unki aawaaz goonje kaano mein humesha
Yeh kaan humaari thakti nahin

Yoon tarse hum jaise  zinda to hain,
Phir bhi lage hum zinda hi nahin

Kahin yeh zaalim mohabat to nahin?
Jo aakhir tak  rukta nahin.
Ek baar jo chad gaya, woh dil se kabhi utarta hi nahin.

Diye jal gaye

aaj mere dil mein bhi diya jal utha
Aangan ke saath mera ang bhi khil utha

Unki aahat kaanon mein jo goonj uthi
Hazaar shehnaayiyaan tan man mein baj utha

Jis aawaaz ko sunne ke liye hum taras rahe
Use sunke khushi mein paagal man ro utha!!

Love - is All

Love, A longing from within
To reach back in, from where it began!

A daunting horizon to chase, but not in a haste.
It lingers within and favours those, that taste.

A game of misery and suffering it may seem,
Till it clings to attachment that's innate!

Love teaches that it's far beyond,
All that is intimate and is a trait!

It's the only way to get to HIM
So strive for it, day and night.

Love is all that is there...
And it's just everywhere- just hold your sight!

Life is but  an endeavour
To realise just this, so foolish mind, you simply wait.

Dhoonde khud ko!

Talaash kya karen use jo cheez hi na ho?
Khogaya hain lekin wohi, jise kabhi dhoondna na ho!

Aahaten sun sun ke tadapti hain jo
Yaaden chun chun ke tarasten hain tho.

LOg kya samjhenge, rooh ki gehraayiyon ko?
Jinhone pehchaana, jab chod gaye hain khud woh!

Aayina dekhten hain hum, tab bhi dikhten hain woh.
Hum hain ya woh hain?
Yahi  jaan na paayen hain hum to!

क्या पाया क्या खोया

कितनों से मिले , कितनों से जुड़े
कितने रिश्ते और  कितने  वास्ते ?

मिलके - बिछड़ना, जुड़कर - बिखरना
यहीं यहां के कायदे

सीख ही सीख है, हर  बंदिश में
बस क्या यही है, यहां के फायदे?

गज़ब  ही हैं यह ज़िन्दगी के, अजीबो - ग़ज़ब  रास्ते !
खोज में निकले हम पगले हैं, दुनिया जो कहे न मानते

Dil ki baathen...

Dil dooba hai unki yaadon mein
Ise kaise samjhaayen?

Bajthi hain dard ki shehnaayi
kise kyaa sunaayen?

Aakhen band hain phir bhi dikhte hai woh
Bas jo gaye rooh mein
Unhe kaise nikaalen?

Roothe hain itna jo humse
Ey khuda, hum kaise  manaayen?

Aasoon sookh jo gaye
Phir kaise tasalli jataayen?

Yeh pyaar bhi itna zaalim hai
Has has ke rulaaye...

Dil to kya unke liye to hum jaan bhi  lutaaden.

Longing from within

In search of truth, within or without
To survive or to live, in absolute devout!

The choice is set, to reach HIS abode
Soaked in HIS grace, without any doubt

Fumbling and failing at every step though
Yet raising and standing joyfully - in order to sprout

May HIS blessings be my only desire forever
To dissolve and merge so  I return never!

Gift of Divine

Rain or shine, it is the gift of divine
pain or gain, it's the making of what I think of as mine...

Smile and hail, it is here that I must prevail
Strive to make, not break-it is indeed too fragile!

Just Do or Die
Fearlessly and without a sigh!

Rise and fall

Fall and rise or rise and fall
Life is but this - a  call in all ?

Move forward, just never look back
For its always wise, to discard the pack

It's here, it's all here
Heaven or hell
Thoughts within, where I choose to dwell!

life and love- two sides of the same wall
To jump and dive, just to grow tall.

Myth it seems, but what
is then real?
To peel off the reel, merely
to congeal?

In search of truth,  if I do not  swell (ego)
Rise or Fall? -  it should all be well !

Munde nade...

Nade munde, nade munde
Baggi nade munde
Kechedeya kondiruve
Ineke hedarikeyu ninge?

Sullu, kapatagalla aata nadeyali mathe mathe,
Kaluyalide eshtondu nodi kali ada mathe

Hagalirullu thavakadali keda beku nidde
Sathyavanu hudukuva hanga bida beda mathe

Bage bageya novundu
Kalitiruve manave
marayadiru, maathare nee sathe.

Avanaata maathra ullivudilli thilli enna manave
ida maathra dhyaanisu nee mathe mathe!!

Trust - I do

Trust I do, time and again
Moving on in pain, yet again...

Realizing it is all in vain,
I smile at my own pain!

 
In the darkness of ignorance
Yet wild and cold

Seeking benevolence
On the path untold

With trust again, Now in divine!
For trust is love and trust is bold

Trust is against strife
And it is all that is life!

Trial of the Trail

Trying to trace the trial
of the trail that went past and how?

Trying and tiring seems the trail indeed
If trying is towards that which is frail

Mind Oh mind, try for that which will last
Turn the trail into grail!

Free yourself from the trial
Hail high and sail

Over the sea that brings terror and pain
Remember that there is neither pain nor in real any gain!

Read thee?

How I wish to read thee?
Into the depths of within

Bare and plain
And yet so divine!

In search of the unknown
With the thirst of knowing

Clueless yet cautious
About what I so adore!

Drifting away slowly
Steadily indeed

Tearing my heart again
I see, what a bargain?

Defined and formless
Crystal clear.

Subtle but firm
Like the wondrous form!

Filled with mystery
Wading away the misery?

Intense and fierceful
Paining me in joy!

Why am I so puzzled,
At this wonderful ploy?

Moving on with life again
I just wish to share

Read me or leave me
I do really care.

Plight

Seeking within relentlessly
To skim off the dirt permanently

Striving thus I move on vigorously
Falling and failing,  effortlessly
 I gather myself, quite senselessly.

Utterly painful and silly!
 Dropping me off repeatedly
In the same spot where I began vehemently!

I try to march ahead yet, courageously
Apparently cruel, I do crave worthlessly.
Laughing at my pain, seeking mercy from divine

Crippled,  am I within this cage?
Ceaseless struggle as it seems at this stage
Unbound I feel or am I missing the rage?

Holding onto grace with all my might
Looking nowhere else but at the divine sight.
Bless me thus as I am tired of my plight.

The wait...

Wait, as I behold
Weightless, I do aim to be
And yet, in cold, I wait for the untold!!!

Waiting, ah yes, it does mould...
Me into the world that seems far and bold
Leaving me to ponder thus- Am I growing old?

I feel neither the pain, nor there seems any gain

Of this wait that seems eternal and in vain?

Yet, here I am, waiting to unfold...
A treasure that's precious but already sold
Alas!!! to me it is greater than any emerald, diamond or any gold!

Moon - The whiteness

Darkness, It is , my beloved most!!
Bright, it seems with you,
the host??

Subtly chasing off the heat...
Burning within and ...without.

Watching you soar
Up and down
My heart beats ceaselessly in  devout.

Oozing out whiteness
That enters my very soul
kindling a sweet turbulence
That cause ripples galore!!!

Oh!!! What a joy it is
To see you adore
darkness of the sky
Yes, my beloved most.

Shiva Tonight, Shiva - The coolest!

#Shiva tonight, Bless me

To explode into the rapturous night with all my might

For my Master’s with me, who is ever so bright!

Shiva - the coolest, they ask me why?

Is there a reason for the sky for being a sky?

I think for a while,

And your thought does bring a smile

On my face that is otherwise so guile.

As I close my eye, with master’s grace - Oh My!

I feel you dance within - "tha dhi thai"

Making my little heart cry...

Like a child thats lost and doesn’t know why?

For no reason then, I feel so shy!

A shiver runs through my spine

I  shudder wonder why?

Leaving my throat so dry…

But I don't reachout for water,

And I have no clue why?

Aah!! I think I know you, the coolest guy!!

You dwell in the coolest home that is up so high?

As silly as I am, I  still wonder...

Sigh....Sigh...

And don't forget our deal, remember - I shall spy

That just before I fall really cold and die,

I should do nothing but wonder,

That you’re indeed the “coolest", But then, why? why? why?

Mind..Mind, Mind - Never mind???

Oh Mind!! I see you repeat patterns...
Chasing the limited at every occurrence

How do I distance myself from you?
By grit, or just by severe penance?

Here I am willing to destroy,
The very basis of what I thought of as my existence.

My master, my life breath...

Burn me from within, if you need to, spare no trial
For what I seek is no less than benevolence

Pull me out of this madness
This treacherous cycle that appears endless

Aware that I am, purely by your grace,
I  wish to dissolve now, at an insane pace.

A "deed" - 'A -"greed" ' ? ;-)

 As and when they need, then they heed
 And you believe, that they are yours indeed!!

You wander tirelessly, caught among this breed,
Quite ignorantly, until you are left with endless greed...

Again and again, you sow the seed
of a deed, yet deed and then yet another deed.

Ah!! you look around, in despair, moving round and round?
Like a clueless insect - yes, you are completely bound.

Nay!! Stop for a moment and just dive within, I plead
To find the weed, yes - one more weed and yet another weed...

Uproot these with it's seed and it's creed
To hit on the treasure of the much needed meed

And then you are free - like the air and the fire and the wetting rain
Dancing on the sand that made you and your grain

Go on and on till you explode and dissolve
Into the darkness of nothing - for, is that where you belong?

Wearing a Mask, Indeed a task!

Just one more form of stone you are - and yet so much for you??
Just one more form of bamboo's hand you are - and yet so much for you?
"Lucky" you are indeed, for the whole humanity is now after and all over you

Striving for you knowing fully well that you cant and wont come along
Missing everything in the bargain until they themselves turn into your basic form??
Funny are the ways here, funnier is this chase...

But wait, I see an ant as he chases for a piece of that sugar
Well, he does seem more joyful than most here who chase you all their life!!
Alas! Why would they not? for their life is much longer than that of an ant!

I just love it when you play hide and seek with me,
For there is only that much space for you in my heart,
To play a game with you and watch you trying to catchup tirelessly!!

But listen, I join this race for now, though merely an act!
I enjoy wearing this mask on too, like everything else I do
Yes, I am alive - full of love and energy to savour " Life" that's far beyond you and your silly pact!

Why hesitate to pretend for a while?
When I now have the control to shed the mask and you as and when I want!!